too much me...

sometimes i close my eyes and i can
almost grasp the concept of what is it
that i really want out this life
i see myself blushing when meeting my true love
i hear a lot of giggling from our first kiss and
even feel butterflies in my belly from saying yes to
the perfect proposal
sometimes i see myself walking down the isle
all covered in white and tiny purple wild flowers
i hear the perfect vows and even feel
that tear that runs free down my cheek when i say ''i do''
i feel all the nervousness from my honey moon
feel my heart opening up to my lover's sweet and gentle touch
i even have a taste of ecstasy and overwhelming sensation
i am able to picture my belly...all huge and full of life
i feel tiny kicks inside of it
even hear a small but steady heartbeat
i feel the pain, the anguish and the joy of
delivering my first baby...
i see myself so happy, so full of pride!
i see myself surrounded by so many good people
kind people
my people
i don't feel alone
i feel happy and overjoyed!
yes, sometimes i get to see all of this...
sometimes, just sometimes...
but sometimes i just get to see
reality and what i really have...
and that's when i know im missing u...
that's when i know the only thing
that's right in that picture perfect future...is you
you are the key that unlocks it all...
the spice which makes it all fun...
im missing half of my future, im missing u in my life
im missing the smile next to me at the perfect sunrise
im missing tickles in bed at breakfast time
im missing my kneeled gentleman
im missing my groom at the end of the isle
im missing my gentle lover at my endless nights
im missing the perfect father to my gorgeous kids
im missing gentle touch and warm embrace
im missing coffee, cream and no sugar...
i got too many dreams
i got too many fears
i got way too many wishes waiting to come true
and i got too much me and not enough of you