why??!!

of all the questions in my head
that keep me up at night
there's only one that makes me wear a frown
of all the childish dreams i ever had
there's only one i wish it would come true now
of all the tears i've cried
for scrapped knees, and broken fingers
and embarrassing situations,
these, the ones im crying
are the ones that truly rip my soul in two
how can all this be a lie?
how can all this be just a dream?
am i that foolish?
am i that lonely?
am i just seeing things that are just not there?
i see loving arms
i see ur tender touch
i see hugs and laughs
i see joy and bliss
and i see hope and chance
all this warmth, all this sorrow
all this anguish, all this thrill
all the kisses im still holding
all the hugs that i am longing
this amazing ray of sunshine that brighten up my days
this sense of true belonging
this breaking free and letting go
this set of silly words
that blushing nervousness
this emptiness that surrounds me
that place i rather be
this not knowing where i stand
that safety feeling i get
i know why the day is bright
n why the night is dark...
i know how birds fly and why
planes wont fall from the sky...
i know where babies come from
and i know why the cowboys ride...
i know about the stars, the sun and all them
pretty pretty trees around me
i know past, present and future
i know reality and make believe
since i know there aint no never never land
why so far?
why not near?
why there
why not here?
why her?
why not me?